Pregnancy and Infant loss awareness is a time to honor and remember those affected by pregnancy and infant loss, including miscarriage, stillbirth, SIDS, and ectopic pregnancy. It's observed in October, with Pregnancy and Infant Loss Remembrance Day on October 15.
On October 10, 1997, I lost twins. Nathan and Naomi would have been 27 years old today. Throughout my life, I always wanted twins. I had imagined dressing them similarly and raising them with the same values. When I became pregnant, I believed it was a gift from God.
After losing the twins, I struggled with feelings of being cursed. I questioned if it was punishment for a past abortion or for not serving God the way I thought I should. However, I came to realize that God is not like that. As stated in the KJV of the Bible, Romans 8:1 says, "There is therefore now no condemnation to them which are in Christ Jesus, who walk not after the flesh, but after the Spirit." I came to understand that my thoughts at the time were unwarranted.
Because of childhood and military trauma, child loss, and other experiences, I recently completed therapy for PTSD. I sought help through Cognitive Processing Therapy (CPT), which is based on the idea that thoughts affect how people feel and act. The therapy helped me identify and challenge negative thoughts, or "stuck points," that were created by trauma. These points kept me stuck in my PTSD and prevented me from recovering.
Today, I am healed, my thoughts are more apparent, and I have and will continue navigating life's trials. Learn more about my story and how you can heal in my memoir; A Queen Was Born Again, available on Amazon or this site at nekohl.com/shop,

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